A Brand New Day

every day starts brand new. sure there's carry over from the day, week, month and years before but each day is brand new and we can choose how we'll handle some of the direction it will take. take 09.19.07 for example. i woke up with jeremy, jeanine and zack on my mind because of the birth of ryan that would be taking place. i thought that would be as good as the day got for me and i just knew there was going to be some disappointment on my end. why i don't listen to Matthew 6:23... i have no clue. it tells me not to worry but i just can't help myself! i was down because of two job interview i had a few weeks ago and hadn't heard anything. i left messages but still nothing. a little before 4:00 pm tyler and i were outside waiting for jo to come home. she rounded the corner and you've never seen a bigger smile on a 16 month olds face when i told him that was mommy. i was also smiling too but that's besides the point. turns out he doesn't worry about mommy not coming home. he may run around the house looking in all the rooms and fuss a little, but when daddy tells him mommy will be home soon he smiles and trusts me. (why do we grow up and stop listening to our daddy's... our Heavenly Daddy's... our Heavenly Father? he told me not to worry.) we helped mommy out of the car, gave hugs and kisses and got her things and off inside we went. not a minute later the phone rings. it was one of the companies i interview with on the phone. i was all set for the blow that i thought was coming... the blow that never came. do you know you can hear a smile in someone's voice over the phone? it's true you can and she was smiling. "don i didn't want to call you back till i had good news... and i have good news for you!" why do we worry? i couldn't control the news, it was out of my hands but still i went on for days worrying about not getting a job offer i desperately wanted. why didn't they call back, turns out they just hadn't made their decision yet, that's all. but still i wasted 3 days worrying about them not calling me back. i kept thinking, "their just waiting for the person they offered the position to, to tell them yes" just when you think i would have learned my lesson about not worrying... i told her about my illness and that a needed an afternoon off every 2 months to get my medicine. she was going to have to check with the department manager to make sure that wouldn't be a problem... cue the worrying all over again! i just Never learn! turns out it's still not a problem, they want me, i've got the job. i'll start 10.01.07. it will be a great day. i'm sure i'll watch a video on the company, fill out mountains of paperwork, get my picture taken for my id badge, worry about something silly because i just can't help myself.

i wrote this entry because... truthfully i really don't know. when i sat down to write this isn't at all what i planned. maybe someone needs to read it or i just needed to get it out. maybe it's someone reading it today, tomorrow, next week, next month or years from now. i don't know. it could be me reading it again, it could be you maybe you're worrying about something. if you are, don't. we don't need to. tomorrows coming and it's got enough trouble of it's own. if you haven't clicked on the word worry yet i'll save you the trouble. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own. " Matthew 6:34 (NIV)

now if the dolphins would just get a victory for me that would be one more thing i can check off my worry list! :)

Hello World

well i've finally done it, i've created my own blog. after feeling somewhat inferior to my family members (cal, patrick and most recently jeremy) who have their own blogs i've decided to venture out there and create my own. it won't be the most in-depth, flashy, deepest and political blog around. i can promise there will be spelling, grammar and punctuation errors. i'll have updates for family and friends and talk about things that i feel are important. i hope this blog will help me keep in touch more with family and friends and be a point of light in a dark and depressing world. lastly if somethings on your mind let me know. if you're interested and I hope you are... matthew 6:34. wow, my very first blog entry. how exciting!